By Bobbe Crouch
Mark 11:24 Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
The darkest periods of my life have always been the most hope-filled. I can't pinpoint who taught me this or when, as I cannot recall a time this wasn't in my heart. The times I have been face down on the pavement of life, I've always had one eye focused on the love of God and the Blessing that's surely on the way.
These are the times my heart whispers to me, "God will heal this. God sees you. God sees!"
I believe the Almighty does see, hear and feel everything I go through on this earth. Being the loving father He is to me; He waits for me to find the lesson of the experience; and when I do, He sends His grace.
That being said, it's a dark time for me right now. For days I've been up at five am succumbing to tears and lamentations. It's so hard to find the hope in a situation that keeps replaying itself in the exact same manner year after year. I keep telling myself, "God sees", yet for the moment, it isn't bringing me any resolution.
I do not know what to do in order to fix this. I don't know that it can be fixed. I know perfectly well that the definition of insanity is repeating the same action over and over again expecting a different result. However, in this case, I am not the one repeating the same action and I already feel I have tried every possible approach.
Still in all, I keep one eye open, knowing unequivocally that through every single period of darkness in my life, God has revealed Himself to me in miraculous ways.
And so I will pray again, believing God will heal this situation, and He will.
I can't. You can. Please Do.
Thank you in advance.
I love you.